Hi everyone, S225 here. Y'all can call me Nick, spartan 225, Cap'n K, whatever you like.
Today was my last day with my current employer. I spent almost six years between four different stores for a pet sales company that I will not name here. During my time at these stores I've seen, done, taught and learned quite a bit about animal husbandry, veterinary care and sales that I will likely take to my grave along with the scars I've earned. I've seen the good, bad and ugly that comes with darn near every job. There have been days that made me want to scream, days that have made me scream, days where I've been bit by every type of animal we sell (everything from fish to snakes) and a few days where I actually wanted to go in and work.
Made a lot of friends at my first store. Three of us had been hired at the same time into a failing location. This store was known in the entire district as "the store managers went to be fired" as it was in such disarray. The three of us split into the three sections of operation, stocking, petcare and cashier (this is where I started). Within the first year the store turned around. Items were stocked well, the pets were kept in perfect health and the checkout lines ran fast and efficiently. I took a promotion which I regret taking under the management at the time and eventually the three new kids on the block were training each other in our respective departments. New manager comes in, I get demoted, get my pay cut after previously being said that wouldn't happen even if I stepped down and I got to watch all of the work we put into the store go down the drain. We gain some new blood and lose some old, each time someone would leave we took them out for dinner and bowling. A happy little family. New management again comes in only this time she knows what she's doing. I get repromoted, my friend in petcare takes a promotion and we get things back on track. 2020 rolls around and I am offered another promotion at a different store. Gave this a few days to settle and said yes. My team would not suffer without me so I had no guilt transferring stores. I knew they could handle the pets and store functions as we had all helped each other cross train.
The past two years had been the worst experience I have ever had. No sense of family or even unity, people constantly butting heads just because. People going behind my back to bad mouth or undermine the new guy. You know how I delt with this? I was myself. I did my best to socialize and befriend everyone, even those who I knew despised me. Everyone got along with me after a while. I wanted to bring the store up to the same standards of my last one and help everyone mesh better. Everyone knew about my printing and suit. It made for a great discussion point and grew healthy conversation between a lot of my coworkers. But still everyone hated the store. I did too.
Today I spent my 14 mile trip home crying. The ladies in the salon had gotten me a lovely farewell card. One of my fellow leaders came in on her day off just to say goodbye and give me a coffee. All I heard was "Nick I'm so sad you're leaving but I'm happy for you". I had spent the past week or so printing little mementos for everyone. A puppy here, a dabbing stormtrooper there, I even did a lithophane or two. I didn't have the same feeling of confidence that the store functions would be kept up. I worry about the animals and happiness of my associates. A lot of them are debating leaving as well as they are not happy there. That's why I left. I wasn't happy. One of my leaders from my first store who i hadnt seen in two years came in and the first thing she said was "Nick you're gray" in reference to the amount of silver highlighting my temples. We laughed and remembered the crazy times we had. I said I'd stay in touch and promised to print her and her young son a cool shark as I know that's her favorite.
I thought I had failed this new store. For me, making people happy is a priority. This can be a curse as it's easy to forget yourself in between everything. Keeping my self happy. I think of my suit. One of the few things I've done for ME. My friends and family. Seeing them happy makes me happy. I know how much they appreciate me. And I know how much they want to see me being happy for me.
Yesterday I snapped. I started exclaiming "why cant y'all just pretend to get along" after a snarky, unwarranted comment from one associate to another. I saw that my happiness wasn't worth the cost of this job. Of trying to fix problems others don't want fixed. "I'm doing this for me". I felt greedy at first then quickly saw how taking care of yourself wasn't greed. It was good. I start my new job this Monday (pi day wooh). I'm working out of my own home for the first time with new people. I'm going to be helping people. I'm going to be helping myself. I will not miss my old company. I will miss most of my coworkers and I plan on visiting them to stay in touch.
Be good to others
Be good to yourself
Others may not follow but that's not your fault. Find what makes you happy. Find what makes others happy. Know how similar these ideas can be. And how different.
Don't forget yourself
Don't forget others
And others won't forget you.
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And thanks for making it this far. It's a relief to get this out.
S225